Anger management

There have been some very good things in all of the last three days, but looked at in totality they have been pretty crap.

There is something I have been very angry about, but such is the way of things that I can't tell you what it is.  It turns out that my anger is invalid, misplaced, or out of proportion, or something.  So I can't tell you what it is about because then I would risk offending someone for something that isn't their fault.  That's the theory anyway.

My problem is that currently I lack the tools to work this stuff out for myself.  I am likely to reach erroneous conclusions based on misinterpreted data, or I am simply unable to set things into context or proportion in an appropriate way.  I am overly reliant on others to interpret things for me, and also to communicate in a meaningful and timely way.

All of which makes me wonder whether I am expecting too much of people.  I've learned to assume that if I always initiate contact with others and they seldom or never initiate contact with me, then there's not a genuine relationship there - what there is, actually, is a dependency.  But what if that assumption is wrong? As a result of that I've stood by and watched dear friends disappear out of my life.  What happens when they come back?